Yep, Phili. The language as a tool runs out of words when it comes to explaining the subtle nuances of emotional response.
Like others here, my CD experience sometimes has to find a new direction or a street in the neighborhood I haven't explored.
Since I've had more time (something you touched on) I've come around to seeing that the inconceivable passing as a targeted goal.
Just because of its allusive allure. But I still enjoy my over the top Doc-like outfits and personas.
It's fun before it's art before it's a lifestyle before it's my identity.