I have just reciently come through exactly what you are going through. Chest pains and all. My wife of 20+ years told me that if I went all the way she would assist me but that she would never sleep with me again.
My pdoc had cleared me to begin hormone therapy and all so I began a low dose and after about thirty days and feeling very suicidal I had to stop. My pdoc said that proved to me that I had a crossdressing fetish and that emotionaly that is where I wanted to be. Jim is now regaining the priviously healthy sharing of mindspace with Tiffany without letting her control all the situations.
May you find the peace within you as you are on target with the catagories.
My trip into a 1/10th dosage of estrogen was a bad trip, I can not fathom what a full dose would do to my head.
It was a very valuable lesson inded and with the wifes help things are retuning to normalcy. A big hug Tiffany
