Hi Sara99.
Welcome.
We also have a private forum for natural women on here....called FAB
You need 2 more posts to qualify (for a total of ten).
It's easy to join.
For now, I would just read and read and read as much as possible on here where you have access.
You will learn a lot and gain insight on how to cope. Education is key.
Then when you have access to GIRLTALK, you can read our stories and struggles too.
Your instincts are very good, trust them.
Just remember to love and care for yourself as much as him.