Thanks for the support, Jessie. The strange thing is, she's really the only person that I feel like I can be my complete self around. I have what I like to think of as a "chameleon" type personality.
When I'm around other people, I pick up on their mannerisms, words they use frequently, tones of voice, expressions, opinions, all kinds of things, and generally use them myself when I'm around that person. I don't know if it's supposed to help me get along with people better or what, and I don't do it on purpose, but I notice myself doing it a lot. If someone I'm talking to happens to speak slowly and deliberately, I do so too without even thinking about it. If they say "like" a lot, I do too. I can't think of very many good examples, but I do it pretty much all the time, around everyone, even my family, to the point that sometimes I'm not sure what my own personality is completely like.
But not when I'm around her. When we're together, I don't usually pick up the things she says or does. I tell her what I think and I say things my way, and sometimes I'll act or speak a little more like her, but nothing like it is with everyone else. And I don't really know why. But it seems like I'm only mostly myself around everyone else, borrowing parts of their personalities in order to mesh with them better, but I can really be myself around her. It's kinda weird.
I've never known anyone like her, which is why I really don't want to loose her, and why I'm so scared to tell her. I hope it all goes well, thank you so much for your good wishes and your thoughts.
(PS: geez, I've got a lot to say tonight)
