Amen!! It's almost like there is a great cosmic joke going on and we're the last to be in on it.
Great new avatar, Ze! Snappy pic!
Greetings, Thomas. Nice to see you post here again.
It's possible you are truly feeling the tug of both sides to one degree or another. And honestly, I do not feel that gender is black and white, but a mix of hues. What we call male or female is often defined by societal roles and views that are popular at any given time to suit the situation (although some last centuries).
On the other hand, there is a part of you that may be having difficulty "letting go" of your perceived femine side for whatever reason. If you wish to retain some of it, so be it. Why not? Whether it's an aspect of mannerism, attire, or attitude. Be YOU. Discover YOU. Take your time. And I hate to say this, but we all change and grow over time into something different than what we are today.
Whether others feel you pass or not should not be as important as if YOU feel you pass or that you feel you are being true to yourself.
I do hope that makes a semblance of sense. We may not all know who we are 100% and the journey can be a struggle, but day by day, year by year, we can learn who we are and be true to that.
Cheers