If I'm supposed to represent, what do I say?

[aleshiabaum]

Lol, 'Baum' is a variation on a good friend's ex girlfriend's last name. I chose the name years ago when I created my email account and was casting about for a female name. I was living in the west at the time of 9/11. To my knowledge, there's no connotation being attempted.
I'm a big fan of Evans and the Romantic/Impressionistic period pianists. To my ears, Radiohead is one of the few bands that attempts that kind of chromaticism successfully in pop. Music is still the most important thing to me...at least it's tied for first with love. I meant it doesn't have the same social significance it once did to the world.
I've written to a few friends this weekend as well, and have been reading their thoughts as well as the ones posted here. Yes, it's still a bit nebulous, but finding out that there are others who feel the same as me is really affirming. I'm confident that the cd'ing will sort itself out over time, I'll establish my niche in the local community and have fun with it.
My sexuality is fluid in theory, but in practice it seems that it takes a gg to really make me feel a spark. My chief complaint with some of my exes was that either they were more conservative than I, or simply not that much fun.
You know, my parents have 'done the right thing' all their lives, yet the economy has bankrupted them. My primary directive at the moment is to refuse to let my current unemployment cause me to live in fear, or panic and move away or something. I'm not going to get another job I hate. The past three years has been just existing and spending my extra cash on more musical equipment. But if you can't express yourself on an acoustic guitar or piano, a nicer guitar or piano isn't going to make a difference. So for now I'm going to live by selling stuff that weighs me down and work on my composing.
I honestly feel like it would be better to have a great time for the next twenty years and then move to a remote fishing village, than to buy a suit and work in a cubicle to buy a house that I won't pay off until I'm in my seventies. That hardly makes me a Rainbow Family member...but it's a start. Imagine having fun every day, surrounded by like minded friends.