First, thanks for the cliff notes since I have add and needed the reminder...lol
Second, you might need to come to terms with who you are. I have been through plenty of years creating a macho male persona to avoid Christy and after 40+ years of trying to hide it I have finally accepted that this is who I am and who I have always been. Now, I regret most of the machismo I created. Like Amelia said, You need to figure out what will make you happiest.
Aren't there female body builders? Wouldn't that give you both?
