Kaz,
It is sad that you feel somehow diminished by the discussion here. I have always thought that being gender variant is no lesser of a burden than being transsexual. In fact to me it is clear, that in many cases being gender variant is a much greater burden. You ask if I know what it is like to need to transition and not being able to? I transitioned at age 56 because prior to that point in my life I could not. Not that anyone imposed a prohibition on me but rather I had made decisions early in my life, the consequences of which placed responsibilities and obligations on me that made it impossible for me to transition until I was at this age.
Your statement below says to me that you are transsexual, yet in an earlier post you say this:
I am not sure what the illusion would be. There is no cost/benefit to transitioning, both hormone therapy and surgery other than to be whole, to be congruent for those that are transsexual. For someone who experiences gender variance there is no threshold which you can cross to be whole in this sense. I hope I do get it, and as I stated in my comment these matters are never about validity only about understanding. My biography has no greater value than yours.and I am too old to be prepared to do surgery and HRT just for a few more years of illusion...