Hi again!
What a wonderful thread! I've often wondered what course my gender orientation would take without any of the limitations currently placed on it (many of which I love very much, like my wife!!!!). But it does seem that there are ways of testing it.
Anne, do you have the opportunity of taking a vacation fully en femme? Actually requiring yourself to be Anne 24/7 without recourse for a couple of weeks could be a wonderful way to set some perspective. I've been able to come close to that and it really did help.
The other thing I find fascinating (envious?) about your situation is that your job situation might actually be improved if you were to transition, or at least turn the gender priority to Anne's side. I don't know your details, but most larger places have the machinery in place for you to transition, and it might be that your employer would welcome the change.
But the words I used above might be significant: Make Anne your primary gender presentation, and then "crossdress" when you need or want to be male.
Isn't this life just wonderful![]()