I had no idea that posting an innocent question would raise such a ruckus but like Jorja said, "the only dumb question is the one not asked." Its seems I need to find information before I can find information. Anyway, to put this as honestly and sincerely as I can, In my own crude language, I just want to be a girl. I guess I wasn't looking at SRS as a correction for an incompatability. Instead I was looking at it as a way of making my dream come true. I do not want this penis between my legs, period! There have many times where I wish I could just take out the butcher knife and cut it off but I'm not insane. I actually think I would be happier with no sex organ at all rather than have this thing between my legs. When I first read about SRS, one particular site said 80% never again achieve orgasm (which now I believe is not correct. More like 20% I don't know but this is why I posted the original question) My point is, Im 47 years old, I've had plenty of orgasms, I think I would be willing to give that up just so I could have a vagina. Of course I don't want to give that up and may not have to, but I would. Why would I go to such lengths like dressing up like a woman every day if I didn't want to be one? From my point of view, I don't see why anyone would want to be a hairy, smelly, ugly man if they could be a soft, pretty, smooth female. I don't get the FtM deal but I certainly don't want to upset anyone who is. Anyhow, I will probably have to have this darned ole penis the rest of my life but If I can at least get the breast than I'm gonna!!

I was called a fetishist. I need to look that word up but I didn't like the sound of it. Is crossdressing just a fetish? I've been doing it since I can remember. I can't quit doing it. Believe me, I've tried. I've hid it all my life until a few months ago when I came CHARGING out of the closet. Best decision I ever made! Like I said, I love being one of the girls!!!