you really do have to separate your other issues before you really get moving on something like transition..
the good news is that if you step back and take your life day by day, you may find more stability than you can imagine..
its confusing for us because the mental health issues go hand in hand.. when gender dysphoria gets bad you may describe negative feelings as depression or anxiety...but there is an added component which i can only describe as a feeling of being trapped and isolated ... some people don't feel that added component nearly as much...its that extra feeling that aims so many of us towards transition..no matter what the cost because the feeling of isolation is so distressing.....and because you are transsexual, you "just know" that living as a woman will help...
you want to thing day to day...electrolysis can make you feel better as it feels like progress ...anything that feels like progress should help... another thing you can do is to brave the world..just do it...i recall very well my feelings about going out and about...i realized my dressing sessions were going to need a real world test if i was to proceed...many stares later, i was alive and being out there only cemented my understanding that i was aiming towards transition..
