Reine, with exception to purely fetish oriented dressing, I hypothesize that when WE the CDer see something we like it creates an urge or a greater urge to dress comes from the same mechanism that causes non transgender people to be motivated to change their appearance or behavior, such as eating better, exercising etc etc. Women will see another woman who has a look they admire. Not necessarily heels, it could be flats, a nice blouse, or pants, just everyday style of clothing. They may think, I like how that looks on her. Then, the next time when shopping (not creating an urge to shop) but just that casual observation may lead a woman to try on something similar. As I said, not fetish, or if they see something they find appealing in a non sexual way, they are not going to go run home and just start wearing something. But it is there, in a subconscious way.
For CDers, genderfluid types such as myself, at least how it is for me, since this thread all started with you quoting me.... hehehe.... the urge to dress, or look like or be a woman is always there to an extent. oftentimes like a background program running on a computer. Then, when I see something that I like, not in a fetish way, because for me, dressing is not sexual. In fact I personally dislike the highly charged look of say 5 or 6 inch stilettos, pencils skirts and gobs of crazy make up. Basically the hooker look. Not for me, and it isn't an age related thing either. I always found it to be distasteful, out in public anyway, even when I was 20. It didn't impress me then, and doesn't now.
When I do see the look I personally like, that background program does move to the conscious part of the brain. That is how I can best describe it. When I was a teenager and in my early 20's, well, that was just a very confusing (more confusing lol) time than now. The denial aspects of myself back then certainly made the desire to be much more dramatic, and the resulting attempts to thwart such desires off of the brain. Now, it still happens, but in a much more subtle way for me.
