life is a journey and some relationships are just ships passing in the night (regardless of what we WANT).
Counselors talk a lot, but if you really want to experience sex as a female, maybe find a nice gay club, that way you can test if that sort of sexual relationship is right for you.
I'm planning on re-experiencing motorbike riding - it might kill me on day 1, day 10 or maybe never, but life should be about experiences.
With experience, we can better decide what we want and what we don't want, it creates growth.
So what am I trying to say, instead of suppressing everything, how about trying to be 100% involved for a while and see if it's right for you.
BTW, wife and kids always think my advice is crap
