Any conversations we've had over the last fifteen or so years have led to an agreement of tolerance on her part, as long as it's private. She tolerates what has surfaced on the outside to get some of the value that's inside. But, the things that are surfacing are expressions of the inside that she seems to devalue.
And, the thing is that I cannot fault her for disliking my femininity. Obviously most women would be horrified to be associated with a feminine husband. I feel sorry for her for being stuck with a feminine man but that doesn't make me less feminine.
I'm to the point where I couldn't be content, if the only reason she truly loved who I am, is because she understands all the quirks. If she's turned off by the quirks, it just makes me mask them, or deal with a constant feeling of rejection. I've come to the point of just dealing with the feeling of rejection.
