Jacie,Don't let it get you down all at once,just tackle one problem at a time.It sounds like employment and self survival need to be tops right now,then you won't be in a predicament with future child support.You can't change others perceptions of you,so don't crucify yourself over it,just step up to the plate and do what you can to best provide for your kids.Get together with an attorney so he can help you decide where you stand and what rights you have.You deserve the right to see your children.