The wife is getting nervous

[Kelly DeWinter]

As our trip to Vegas draws very close , the wife is having second thoughts about me going for my transformation. She is affraid that this experience will change me forever. Affraid that I might cross the line. I admitted to her tonight that I was coming back to the hotel as Denise and was gonna change back there. I am very excited to do this but somehow I feel she has a valid point. I went out and got a fresh pedicure tonight. I bought some thi highs and my first hand bag. I am taking this night on the town as a girl very seriously. She said I looked awful as a girl , I then printed a pic of me from a month ago and asked her to look at it, I said if you can truthfully say I look awful as I girl ,I won't do it. She barely looked at the picture and said , I don't wanna see it. Yes she was drinking tonight so her emotions were out totally. She said to me,how would you like it if I grew a penis?? I didn't know how to answer that but assured her that I wasn't getting SRS any time soon. I am not totally out of the closet quite the contrare. She does want me to be happy but she doesn't want to know anything about Denise. I am sorry girls but we all have our vices. She does things that I don't approve but I do not control her. I have be shaving my legs every time I get in the shower and many other places and she isn't getting mad about that. She knows that this is my dream to get a professional make-over. My excitement will be very high this Friday night. I just hope Denise stays in control and doesn't do anything stupid..

All good points, my wife is going thru medapause(spelled wrong) mood swings,hot flashed, irritable. I told her that we had been together for 25 years , if I was gonna do something, I would have all ready done it. I will admit , the feeling and pleasure of becoming Denise is stronger than ever. And NO she won't be in the room when I come back. I don't wanna waste a service and go change back into Dennis right after photo's . I want a hour or so on the town experiencing life as a female or atleast feel like a pretty girl..

I feel like I just had a session with a SHRINK, OK girls what's the charge... I want to add people's lives are more complex and are not cut and dry . I will say that TARA-May kinda nailed it on the head. My wife sometimes just pick fights over anything just to hear herself YELL. Drinking makes it worse and my wife doesn't know when to say when. Yes you have to throw reasoning out the window with my wife. This may sound cruel BUT my wife need me more than I need her. I take a large burden from her in life, sorta like a crutch always there for support.

ReineD: Are you sure your not a Lawyer ? You can break down ones words to find the truth or what appears to be the truth. I am not saying your wrong, I see a very smart person here who cares... Thanks

When my wife first met me, in 86, she was the one who suggested I dress as a girl for halloween that year. Little did she know that I so enjoied being a girl that night. She knows that I dress from time to time but we don't talk about it. I did assure her that her husband will be back and that on Saturday when we leave for the Hollywood tour, she would never tell that I was Denise yesterday. She said
( This is gonna cost you ) and wants $ from me for doing this transformation. Does anyone know what it is like to go thru life always being the responsible one , to keep things together, to endure the shame of what my wife can put me thru when she gets looped in public. and the next day when she is sober act as if nothing ever happened, it's tuff. Right now you all say Divorse seems your only option . Some people just deal with situtations until they become unbearable. Will my wife file for divorce, I doubt it. Will I, not realy for I still can take the abuse . Some might say I am the abuser with my crossdressing, your opinion I will update the adventure, some will agree, some will not. Later Denise

That is the problem sobor or not she doesn't want to talk about things, and believe me, crossdressing is not the only issue that needs to be addressed. She knows I read the book my husband Betty, she said that she would read it but has not yet. I truely wish that I can communicate with her but I can not. We do have some fun times together but as the years go by the fun times have lessened. It is TRUE, I do resent her drinking and lack of responsibility. I figure ,I deal with a lot why can't she. AND No is am not a TS or plan on having SRS , I am not brave like some in here or willing to distrubt my socalled normal way of life. We all have our crosses to bare , some are heavier than others!

Denise, All I can say is wow, you have a spouse that is trying to communicate with you and you are so wrapped up in your trip ypu dont 'hear' what she is saying. You avoided the 'penis' question like a pro, yes she may she may drink, but you glibly say 'we all have our vices' and you are shamed when she gets 'loopy' can you imaging how she feels when YOU go out in public ? I've read your previous posts and it sounds like you wheedled the photo session and now somehow implied she is responsible for getting the whole thing started because of one holloween ?

If you want to save your marriage, I would reccomend some serious marriage counseling. When you say your spouse needs you more then you need her, thats just crule. Sometimes in marrige we DO have to put up with things. Its thinking like this that make me understand why familys fall apart. The way you talk about Denise, Denise,Denise it makes one wonder who you are married to ? You are at the abyss, I just don't think you know how close. The mere thought that your spouse says she did not want to seen Denise, and you practicly force your spouse from your room, by insisting in changing back at your room. I would not be surprised if your spouse is not at the bar drinking wonder if it's safe to go 'home'