As you said to qualify your post, I can relate to what you say. It's hard for me to express how I feel about CDing. I only know that I love it when I'm doing it, or thinking, or conversing about it. But I'm not sure that it's a selfish activity. If I can't get my wife to participate with me does that mean shouldn't pursue it on my own? I mean, what about the "sports widows" who lose their husbands to their hobbies. Other pastimes can also get expensive and time consuming. I still feel some guilt associated with my CDing but not to the extent I used to.