this is a good entry.. I skimmed and the part about masturbation grabbed my eyes.. let's see.. in the beginning I was hard pressed not to "enjoy" let's say this part of cross dressing.. actually in the beginning I would get that way by wearing pantyhose and usually it was for the quick hit that I got from wearing them.. in other words I would wear and do the deed then be done with the hose and everything went back down to normal.. then as I started to dress up more I started to think "there's got to be more to this than doing that", and started to wear for longer periods of time.. until one day I wore but didn't go "there" even when I was about to change out of the clothes.. cross dressing to me was very much about my own pleasure and remains that way in different ways.. now it seems to be more mental than physical.. I like to wear the clothes for the "that" feeling now which is the same feeling that I got way back in the beginning but without the "happy ending" aspect, as it were... and every cross dresser has his own set of what it means to them type of guidelines so to speak.. it's like listening to music.. there are those who love rock but you press them on it and it is only a very few bands some are into.. I like a lot of bands it rock and translated to my cross dressing, I wear some clothes and like it and wear other clothes and like it.. I can get by most off days by wearing shoes (my main love).. sometimes pantyhose, a skirt or shorts and shoes.. and when I dress to "pass" those days are special..
