Despite Kate telling you that a woman is nothing more than a life-support system for a vagina, and her cicsexest bull$hit where she proclaims that the significant numbers of trans women who can't have GRS for one reason or another are't really women, you CAN indeed call yourself transexual. Chances are 100% that you know yourself better than anyone else here knows you.

On a more positive note, allow me to add this:

Don't stress about this stuff. You will figure it out as you move through the process. You don't have to make big scary surgery related decisions today, or ever. A LOT of us started out thinking that maybe we didn't' need GRS, and changed our minds later. A lot of us didn't change our minds. Take this as it comes. Try some stuff out. Find out what is right for you. You really can't know what is right for you until you experiment and learn what it is that you want and you need.

YES, lots of this stuff is expensive. Surgery is god-awfully expensive. You can drop $1000 on a purse and matching pumps without exerting any effort. But you don't' have to. There is LOTS of stuff you can do for CHEEP or free. You are a student. Go take advantage of your university health center - where both counseling and HRT is available to you for next to nothing. Buy clothes at goodwill... about 99% of my wardrobe comes from goodwill... and I get compliments on my outfits all the time - sure, there is a lot of crap at goodwill, but there are lots of wonderful finds there too... lots of stuff still with store tags on it... just don't buy the crap. Another wonderful thing about goodwill is that at $4.00 for a piece, you can afford to experiment with looks and fit.

Paint your nails.

Carry a purse.

Learn to walk.

Work on purging your boy mannerisms.

Work on your voice.

Get your ears pierced.

Get a femme hair

There is SOOOOooooo much work to be done, and so much of it is able to be done cheep or free, that being poor (to the extent that you have a place to live et.al.) is not a very good excuse for not getting started until you get further along and the only things left for you to do are surgery related... but by that point... you will be much less ambivalent about it... and the bigots like Kate will bug you less... except when they attack other sisters...