I didn't find anything offensive in your post. You have questions, you seek answers, You are trying to understand all of this and trying to convey exactly what you are feeling, or what your concerns are, and finding the right words to do so can be quite the task under normal circumstances, in a normal conversation, let alone something as confusing as this and it can really be confusing at times. I hope you find the answers that you seek but for a lot of us, they will never come.
This I totally disagree with in spades:
There is nothing to prove that cross dressing leads to transitioning. I have CD for many years and have NEVER felt like I was on the road to transitioning. I enjoy the clothing and the look, I don't have an "inner girl" trying to get out. I think these kinds of comments do more damage than they do good especially for new sister's who are trying to figure out why they do this or discover what this all means to them. CDing doesn't always lead to transitioning and scaring people into thinking it does is far from helpful.