Ok I have a better grasp on where you are coming from now.
I think you saw that other side of you that second Halloween when you looked in the mirror.
You stepped out of your guy side and let the girl side in for a bit.
It was that way for me the first time I did a proper all the way dress up.
I saw the other side of me and actually saw that person I felt like on the inside. A major epiphany for me.
I knew then what was wrong with me and since then everything has made more sense to me as to why I felt the way I did.
