Quote Originally Posted by Christina D View Post
But again, this is the root of my problems right now. For whatever reason, I keep trying to justify my crossdressing and gender identity because it's so new to me that I feel compelled to convince myself that I actually HAVE been the person longer than I realize. I feel like I need to prove to myself that I've always been genderfluid but have only recently realized it so that I don't feel like a phony or "going through a phase."
I think you're in analysis paralysis. Just relax. Don't worry if you're a real crossdresser or a fake crossdresser -- just do it when it makes you happy. I'm betting if there's no basis for it, it will wear thin pretty quickly. There are no International Crossdresser Standards you have to meet; no licensing exam; no duties and responsibilities. Do it if you want to do it, don't do it if you don't. And if, after a while, you find you're still doing it -- hey, you're a crossdresser.