Nikki, I feel your pain. I truly mean that. I am so sorry about the frustration that you are feeling. Alot of good advice in here. But here is an idea that I found to be a great help in dealing with this. It involves risk and I know this is not right for everyone, but, if you have a friend who you can trust and who could be an ally, consider opening up to that friend and introducing Nikki to that friend. If you can do that, it is hard to describe how wonderful that can be. Again, I know everyone's situation is different and I do not want you to put yourself in a difficult situation, but sometimes, if you open yourself to someone and you get love in return, it can make all the difference.
