Good morning everyone. I wanted to take a sec to drop in for a minute. I am begining to feel quite a bit better. I have basically come up with a plan of attack.
1) To get through the temporary insanity I cleaned out my basement.
2.) I have begun looking for a counselor/therapist
3) I have been brutally honest with myself and with my wife.( This has been tough)
4) Tried to focus on what I do have not what I don't
5) Been alot of window shopping
6) Set up a game plan for myself. I get a little bit everyday but
Not enough to fully satisfy. My schedule is currently as such I stay with my kids during the day wife has them at night while I work from our basement. October 8 my schedule is changing I will be completely home alone every Friday. Every Friday I not Nickie I am going to dress to the full 9 yards.
These are the things that I have to be appreciative of and this is how I am choosing to proceed. Until I feel I need to do further, and a counselor agrees its in my best interest to do so. I am a lucky individual I need to focus on what I do have.
Some girls here have given straight forward direct advice and some have been a softer shoulder. Everyone is appreciated more than you all know.
I was in a very very dark place, thoughts that I have rarely had before but its time to put the big girl panties on pick up and move forward with a plan.
