Against my better judgement, I'm responding to this.
You need a lesson in reading comprehension. Let me make this very clear - I'm not in turmoil. I've been through a lot and i'm sure there's more to come, but I'm very happy with my life. Much happier than I ever was before. From what I can see, that makes one of us.
I've met a number of people who've transitioned at or near your age, just FYI. If it's who you are, you can and most likely will do it. Age is just another excuse.
I brought up the collateral damage of my transition because of your assertion that I (and others like me) "just don't know what you'd be giving up", which is why "you just couldn't possibly" and "have to get your priorities right". I know a lot about loss, and I know a lot about hurting (both myself and others). Don't lecture me on the difficulty of loss, and don't even get me started on dealing with the guilt of hurting others. I lied to people I loved for decades. I feel terribly guilty about that. What hurt them was me telling the truth. It was not malicious, and even though it hurt me to do, I feel zero guilt for finally being honest.
The reason you're not transitioning has nothing to do with your martyr-complex about saving everybody else in your life the pain. You don't transition because you're either not transexual (highly likely) or you haven't figured it out yet. If it helps, i don't think you're TS - I think you're a man with an obsession.