Wow! Speechless here, this is a topic that defense toy strikes a nerve and I haven't even begun to look for support groups, I don't know if I want to, my life is awesome and this CDing is like that Damocles story, damn sword over my head. On the one hand I'm elated when I'm Michelle, I feel like I'm connecting with my selfs at an spiritual level. Then there is the reality of who I am everyday, I feel like as a male I am living the dream, love my career love my family, live in my dream house but I always have Michelle wanting to take over more and more each day, I am aware I need professional help or a support group. To illustrate; the last two days I have let Michelle take over my life in a very irresponsible way, my male persona totally disappeared and only Michelle was around, when it was time to quit and get back to the real world I became angry and depressed, yesterday I took it out on my family, I became cruel and rude to them,it wasn't until my wife came home from work and after a long 12 hr shift in the hospital she said she had the kids and that I was free to take time for myself. Enjoyed a nice Ryun and reflection time hit on mile 2, I am an a-hole, I have issues that I need to deal with and not my family, I have to get help. This post is not about me, I feel for you Ms Val, you are doing the right thing looking out for your family and figuring things out before they spiral out of control. We are a broken bunch (most of us) you have taken giant steps on your life and getting help takes huge cojones, I will follow your example and begin looking for the help I need, thanks for your great example and mi sending you the best wishes in your life.
